suprises

Well I went to church yesterday as myself.I had a great time and was really super surprised at just how well I was accepted by everyone.The girls readily accepted me right in including the straight girls which kind of surprised me but was very welcome :).To all there I was just another female there to worship.I later went to a gathering with a group of the guys and figured out real fast how out of place i felt.not that they were mean at all or anything just fully realized i did not belong to that group so i grabbed a blanket curled up on a couch and mostly listened to everyone banter about church business.I was a real eye opener for me and I'm very thankful to each and everyone there.Was nice to be welcomed and be wanted.

Faith

Hopefully in a couple weeks I'll be back in church again and just get to be me and in a setting I love.Quite some time ago a dear friend and mentor took me to church.It was the most liberating thing that has ever happened to me.It felt great to first show myself to my friend for who I am for the first time in our lives and also to get to go worship simply as me.I have never felt so confident and self assured as I did sitting in that church with my Bible in hand.For most of my life I was told i was an abomination and after sitting there for a few moments I truly knew that was not the case at all and that God made me as am for a purpose.I sat down and within moments I had a huge feeling of true calm wash over me that I've truly never experienced before.What exactly that purpose is i don't know but I will follow as best I can to find out.Hopefully in this process of change I can also help others facing the same or similar situations.