suprises

Well I went to church yesterday as myself.I had a great time and was really super surprised at just how well I was accepted by everyone.The girls readily accepted me right in including the straight girls which kind of surprised me but was very welcome :).To all there I was just another female there to worship.I later went to a gathering with a group of the guys and figured out real fast how out of place i felt.not that they were mean at all or anything just fully realized i did not belong to that group so i grabbed a blanket curled up on a couch and mostly listened to everyone banter about church business.I was a real eye opener for me and I'm very thankful to each and everyone there.Was nice to be welcomed and be wanted.

Faith

Hopefully in a couple weeks I'll be back in church again and just get to be me and in a setting I love.Quite some time ago a dear friend and mentor took me to church.It was the most liberating thing that has ever happened to me.It felt great to first show myself to my friend for who I am for the first time in our lives and also to get to go worship simply as me.I have never felt so confident and self assured as I did sitting in that church with my Bible in hand.For most of my life I was told i was an abomination and after sitting there for a few moments I truly knew that was not the case at all and that God made me as am for a purpose.I sat down and within moments I had a huge feeling of true calm wash over me that I've truly never experienced before.What exactly that purpose is i don't know but I will follow as best I can to find out.Hopefully in this process of change I can also help others facing the same or similar situations.

Changes

Well I got several suprises in the last few weeks that have really made my day.I learned that my job is not only supportive of diversity it actualy encourages it including being trans.I have to wait a month to see our diversity mgr to out myself to him and start the process of on the job transition.I'm still completely in shock and amazed but my loyalty to the company as well as my respect went up 100% after learning that and also seeing Transgender Day of Rememberance listed on our official company calender.

Courage and Reality

I've been away for a bit after my first post due to changing conditions at home and within myself.I'm looking at and fully facing what was once a dream and fantasy of mine and making it into a true daily reality.If things go as they appear to be my life will make a 180 degree turn basicaly overnight.I'm scared,terrified,excited and a ton of other things at this point.Things I'd long dreamed of will be given a new life and a lot I'd also never considerd as well .Is a shocking experience to look a what was once a fantasy through realistic eyes

First Time

Hello every one or for that matter anyone.Since this is my very first attempt at blogging I'll introduce myself.I'm a 40 year old TS (way pre op).I've known since I was a child of 4 but only tried to figure it all out within the last few years.

I'm into all forms of art and creativity ,outdoor stuff,motorcycles,learning anything new.I'm very diverse in most areas of my life.
As time goes on you can expect to find all sorts of posts on all sorts of subjects.Just what ever is swirrling through my mind at that moment.